Michelle Duggar, you must be a saint. In fact, any mom who has birthed more than 3 children, I give kudos to.
I don't know how much longer I can make it. Some days are better than others, but lately, I just barely muster the energy to make it through one day.
I pretty much slugged it all weekend, poor Chris, sorry babe.
And yet today, I am still exhausted.
I have an instinctual feeling that it has a lot to do with having a toddler whom I chase after all day, aside from his nap time. That and the fact that Julianna insists on situating herself in the upper part of my torso. I can only imagine the disarray my internal organs are in right now.
I have the first of my weekly visits tomorrow, I have made it here to 36 weeks without incident, so that's great. and if I make it to 38, even better. In essence, I still have 4 weeks to go, but she would be safe in two.

Another issue I have is my Dr.
Don't get me wrong, he is not a bad Dr., but I had mentioned that Chris and I were going to hire a doula and things have never been the same. I think I offended him.
On a personal note, I found two lumps in my right breast after Owen was born, and my(Colorado) OB/GYN ordered them to be biopsied. Good news, they were benign fiberadenomas. The eventually went away and all was well.
Now at the tail end of this pregnancy, one of them is back... and is big enough, that if you look at me, you can see it, not to mention that it is painful. Chris can feel it without my telling him where it is, and when I asked my OB about it, as he felt it he actually said to me" Oh, that little thing?", SERIOUSLY??
It's not little..HELLO.. and for a Dr to dismiss it like that made me feel like a boob myself.
I asked him if I should be worried, and he said no. So now what do I do?
When I had Owen, they augmented my slow going labor with Pitocin and it made my contractions intense. I asked him if I could labor without Pitocin this time he got rather huffy with me and said, "I am the Dr, I would hope you would trust my judgement and that if I told you you needed medication to help you, you would just take it."
I also talked to him about having my tubes tied after she was born, and was told that the only way I could have after her birth was if I had an epidural during labor. Otherwise I would have to come back in 6 weeks for outpatient surgery. Oh, and he was nice enough to mention that he was the only Dr in the practice who does postpartum tubal ligation, none of his partners did, so if he delivered her, I was fine, if he didn't then well I was SOL.
I have never had a male OB/GYN before, but I tell you what, this experience is not what I would call stellar.
I called a Women's Hospital here in OKC today to switch Dr's and BOOOO HOOOOO, they won't switch Dr's this late in pregnancy. I am stuck where I am.
And to top it all off, we can't get a doula now either. Both of the doula's I contacted took so long to get back to me, that neither is avaible for my delivery date, and now there is not enough time to secure one .
So I have an obstinate know it all Dr. and he will probably be the one to deliver my last baby.. I am not looking forward to it at all.
I am so looking forward to having my little girl, to birthing for the last time and to be able to sleep on my tummy again.

Oh yeah.. I have not done ANYTHING to get ready for her to come either. No car seat in the car, I have a few things she can wear when she gets here, but not much. I seriously need to do some baby shopping....sigh...Maybe I bit off more than I can chew this time. My in laws will be here and we have plenty of family to watch the boys, but I don't think my family will be able to be here for her actual birth, they will come out after. Part of the drag of living so far from family. But this is the first time that Chris' parents will be able to be there!!

I am going to try to post more, but can't guarantee that this will won't be the last post before She makes her debut!!

Until the next time....