I can't title this one...it's deep.  

Posted by Heidi



Death, what a morbid subject, right?

I have had some experience with it. For instance when I was only 12, I lost 4 family members in 6 months time, a great uncle, a grandmother, a great grand mother and an uncle.
I have had various experiences since then, another great grandmother, my grandfather whom I still love very much and a few months ago another great uncle.

But recently I have had some other experiences with death. Some outside ones.

I am a nanny for two boys, and the little one, Simon goes to preschool twice a week. One of the families there, whom I have no contact whatsoever, apprently lost a newborn baby son only days after his birth. I don't know his name, or anything about the circumstances surrounding his passing, then two weeks ago, a good friend, Tina, lost her granddaughter of only 3 months to a heart conditon. In additon to that was Terri Schiavo, and then the Pope.

None of these people had I ever met, or will I ever deal with, other than my friend Tina, but the others, I have no contact with them.

I want to mention also men and women overseas fighting for us, I hope they know that there are people out there in America that love them wholeheartedly for what they do for us as Americans.
Death is such a heavy weight to bear for anyone. and perhaps I have been melancholy enough lately, that I experience higher than normal emotions about them.
I feel that poor Terri should have been left alone, no one needed to have that much exploitation ever, how unfair to show this beautiful woman in such a state before she passed.... I would never want my face to be publicized that way. I hope she was surrounded by love when she died.
The pope, he had failing health, and thankfully he passed in private, he was at peace with death and it was, to my understanding a merciful death. I also hope he was comforted in knowing that love was there with him when he went.
God sure does have a plan for us all...
We have no control over it, unless of course we take control, then for Christians, that a sure way to lock yourself out of heaven.
I don't know why I was so affected my these deaths...but I am saddened to know that babies are in heaven, and that everyday, people die. I am thankful for my life each day I wake up. For each breath my son takes and for each day that people I love live...
I don't ever want to take for granted my life or the lives of others around me. I want to tell everyone I know that I love them, and that I am happy that I know them, so that if anything ever happens to them, they can pass with knowing that they were loved....it may not be much that I love them, but my love is pure and unconditional... free for the taking..

Be well all who I love, you have a piece of my heart, and it is yours to take with you when you go.


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